My Space. My Life

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Tired. Stressed. Heartbroken. That is what’s eating me up these days.

There’s the moving back to the previous site. While I am happy I am moving back, you cna never really deny that any move is stressful in its own ways. I am glad to see old friends and be back at the old office though. The view never fails to give me at least a minute of peace.

There’s a storm brewing on the homefront. A big storm I tell ya. It’s got my name written all over it. I really don’t know how much more I can take. I tried, I really tried. People around me can attest to that. But when someone is so stubborn and blinded, how do you make them see? How do you wake them up? I am this close to literally bumping that persons head on a wall just to wake that person up. I am just preparing myself. Asking myself over and over and over if I am ready, if I can take it.

I am tired of your promises. Why not be fair? Why does it have to always be about you and your family? When will it end? You can never live their lives you know. You can not always fix whatever mistakes they make or take responsibility for every decision they make just to make their lives easier. You have your own life, your own path to take. You can help but you can never live their life for them. Please don’t tell me I don’t understand because I do. And to give you time, I stayed for years.

I am so ready to move on. What you said the other day has never left my heart and my mind. I knew it, right from the start. I just chose to deny whatever warning signs I received. I will always be second best. Always be on the outside, looking in.