Have you ever been faced with a really hard choice, you know, that one where you have already wracked your brains out but can’t seem to know which path to take?
Well, I am in that place right now.
While my career is at it’s greatest right now, I can’t help but feel like I want to stop. I want to live my life. I have had enough of the night schedules and I want to be able to see my husband and take care of him. I want to start working on our marriage. Not that we’re in a rut, it’s just that, we don’t see each other most of the week because of our schedules, we don’t get to talk about us, our lives, our dreams and our future.
Also, I am not happy with where I am now. I am honestly hating my job and regret ever applying for that promotion. I don’t hate the tasks that i have to do, that is not the main thing. No job is easy and I am willing to work my ass off at something I know is important and crucial to the account and the company. The one thing I really hate is working with obviously stupid people - not within my team though - just wanted to clear that out. It’s with this person who holds a high position and yet is so clueless of how things work. On top of that, he is so stubborn and would only listen to his own ideas and thoughts. I just really hate it and it is enough to make me want to leave.
All these reasons piling up and making me really want to leave. But, (yes there’s a but, there always is) with me and the husband finally deciding to move out to a place of our own, I can’t just leave work. We need both our salaries to be able to survive. Aarg! Thinking about this now is giving me a headache. Darn!