My Space. My Life

I just finished chatting with my cousin Vanessa. We’ve been disconnected for quite some time now because of our busy schedules but it seemed the years did not tear away the bond we have.

I consider Vane as the cousin closest to my heart - more like a sister to me. When we were growing up, and their family lived in Cotabato, my family and I would often go there to visit during summer and Christmas. Instead of staying at my grandparents house (where my family would stay), I would always prefer staying at Vane’s. We would play, chat and just have a great time together. When the time came for us to go back here in Manila, we would both cry our eyes out. The same thing happens when they visit us here. Despite the distance, letters came in handy to share what’s happening in both our lives.

When she went to college, she stayed with us for 4 whole years. She was a constant rock in my life. Always there when I needed her. We shared countless laughter, tears, joys and pains. She was never critical of me yet she would always give sound advice. Being a person with no fashion sense whatsoever, I go to her for fashion tips (which until now I don’t practice hehe sorry cuz! ). I remember the time when I (was forced) to join a pageant in college for my org. I was so not in the mood to join so I was lethargic in preparing for it. Day of the contest i still had nothing to wear for the sports thingy. Suddenly, Vane remembered that I had this one piece swimsuit that had shorts for the bottom. I told her no way. She insisted. I complied. Well, what can I say, I won as best in sports costume (and in sincere humility, won the pageant as well ).

A few months before she graduated college, she and her brother (Ahiya Ren-ren) moved out of our place to stay at a place of their own. I was devastated but nevertheless, was happy for her. After they left, I got pretty busy at work and we lost touch for a few months. I was suprised one day when she called me up at work and excitedly told me she got the job at a multinational company. This was the job she was eyeing for. I was touched because she said she called me first about the news. I was happy for her, I knew this young lady will go places. And go places she did! At a young age, she lives on her own at a condo in Makati. She drives her own car, and has traveled to Europe!

After that, we lost touch again. We would see each other about once or twice a year, most of the time during big events like at both of her brothers’ weddings, our wedding, which of course there was no time even for small chats. But I always knew, the bond we have will always be there, it will only grow stronger. Tonight proved that. When we saw each other online on Yahoo Messenger, we chatted like we’ve never been apart, and years were like days.

So, cuz, although we never say in words how much we mean to each other, please know that you will always, always have a special place in my heart. You are more than a cousin to me - you are my sister. Wherever we may go, you will always have my prayers with you. Keep on reaching your dreams - you’re halfway there! I have no doubt you will get what you set your mind on!

I really missed you and I can’t wait to see you tomorrow! Luv ya! Mwah!

Nyree and Vane at Ahya ren’s wedding

I am excited about this promise!

“My people will live in peaceful dwelling places, in secure homes, in undisturbed places of rest.” Isaiah 32:18 (NIV)

I can’t wait to see God bring it to pass

Hubby finally agreed and we’re moving out by next year. Praise God! I know it’s somewhat late in the game but I am sure God planned it this way for a reason.

It’s not that I hate it here. Heck, I have it all easy for me. Someone does the cooking, the laundry. All I need to do is eat and sleep. My in-laws are really nice and generous and I love them to death. So, things are just fine here. I guess I just want some independence, you know. Some space. I feel like things are getting too crowded. Besides, I want both hubby and me to learn. To live our lives.

We are excited! We’ve been looking at different condos/apartments for now. We have some major cost cutting to do. We are still undecided if we’ll just rent or find something that’s rent to own. It’s a decision that needs to be prayed about. I am sure God will lead us to the right path. We are just leaving it to Him. We are expecting something big though because, after all, God is a BIG God and what He promises, He fulfills. There’s bound to be challenges along the way but hey, nothing that God can’t handle right?

There’s going to be major cost cutting and mega budgeting to do so goodbye to shopping and dinner dates for the mean time I guess the digital camera I have been eyeing will have to wait for now. Lord, I need patience and mega doses of self discipline!

For now I am just so happy that Hubby finally agreed. I have been praying for this for quite some time now. Thank you as well to those who prayed with us. Please continue to pray with us as we need strength in accomplishing this project.

By the way, you guys know where we can find affordable condos preferably in the Pasig or Mandaluyong area? Either for rent/lease or rent to own?

What is it with PMS that makes a woman go crabby? Well, combine that with dysmenorrhea and you get one hell of a b***h. Well, that’s me today. My lower back hurts all ’round to my abdomen. I feel uncomfortable and I am here in the office because the person who was supposed to be with me today called in sick too.

I’ve been trying to stay positive throughout the day and boy is it hard. I feel like everything with this day is going wrong. Escalators at MRT stations are not working (well, what’s new?), people walking too slow, elevator in this building too slow too. Man, i am doing my best to keep my mouth shut so please bear with the negativity on this post and blame it on PMS and dysmenorrhea. Heh!

I’ve been neglecting my blog, tsk! tsk!

So, how’s everyone? I hope y’all are doing great.

So what’s been happening to me? Well, I’ve got a few updates in hand, but before I go into them, I would just like to greet my Daddy (My Father in Law) a Happy 64th Birthday!

Daddy, you’re the best and I am blessed to have you in my life. Thank you for the love and care you have always showered on us. I pray that God will continue to bless you with more birthdays with us! Hope you’ll have a blast on your birthday! We love you!

Okay, so let’s get on with the udpate. We recently received a blessing. Something we have been praying for for the longest time. Lest any of you think it’s a baby, well, no, not in human form anyway. We just wanted to call her our baby because it was something we have together So without further ado, we introduce you to our new baby, FAITH.

We named her FAITH because it was by Faith that she was given to us. We are enjoying her immensely. My husband can not take his eyes off her hehehe!

Well, we don’t have our human baby yet. Something that we have been praying for too. But unlike before, I don’t go into depression anymore. For those of you who don’t know, I was diagnosed to have endometrioma in my left ovary, making it hard for me to get pregnant. For months I have been on a roller coaster ride. There’s the anticipation of waiting for signs of being pregnant. The hoping when my period was late. The disappointment when pregnancy tests turn negative. The frustration and the depression when period finally comes. I’ve always felt like being tortured. It seems like everyone I knew was either pregnant, got pregnant or giving birth.

One day I just cried my eyes and heart out to God. Asking Him questions like why? or Are we not fit to be parents? or When? Then, when I was finally still before Him, with nothing more to say, no more tears to cry, His peace came to me, soothing me, carrying me through the storm. “My child, My ways are not your ways, what i have promised I shall bring to pass. You only need to trust and wait. ” I stopped crying immediately as I remembered a verse in the Bible that had the same thought:

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the LORD. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts. As the rain and the snow come down from heaven, and do not return to it without watering the earth and making it bud and flourish, so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater, so is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it. You will go out in joy and be led forth in peace; the mountains and hills will burst into song before you, and all the trees of the field will clap their hands. Instead of the thornbush will grow the pine tree, and instead of briers the myrtle will grow. This will be for the LORD’s renown, for an everlasting sign, which will not be destroyed.” Isaiah 55:8-13 (New International Version)

So, here I am. Finally learning how to trust the promise giver. As someone once told me, the promise is as powerful as the promise giver. I am just happy to know that our baby will come, though not now, in God’s prefect time.